Make a beast of myself

The other thing that has been stopping me from blogging as much is the fact I'm having trouble with one of my friends here at uni.

In uni, I have two very close friends. I'll call them A and B. Neither them are like any friend I've ever had before. They're both loud, in your face, not scared to say what they think, and they've brought me out of my shell so much over the past few months. They're like friends I've had for years, and I do honestly love them both a lot.

My main problem is they're both...damaged, for lack of a better word. A has had a lot of problems in her past but she's dealt with them, in her own way, so it's not as much of an issue. B, on the other hand, hasn't. Not at all. And it's terrible, what happened to her, but the way she is starting to behave is starting to wreck everything.

She's having problems with her boyfriend because they can't communicate, she's taking it out on her friends by being aggressive, she keeps on getting drunk, she's being very funny with everyone in general and not really talking to anyone.

And it's sad, because she's a lovely person most of the time. It's just lately, she's been very...off. It came to a head a couple of weeks ago on a night out when she got very drunk and completely freaked out on us all and actually became violent (she bit me). We all received apologies but she's just got worse since then. It's like she's trying to push everyone away. The only ones who are really trying to make sure she doesn't do that are me, A and her boyfriend, and even he is beginning to waver.

It upsets me, because I don't want to lose B as a friend. But she's not the sort of person you can talk to - not about her problems or how she treats people because it will never be her fault, she will never accept blame, it will always be you, you being oversensitive, dramatic or misunderstanding her. Even though enough of us have begun to lose patience and if it carries on, she's not going to have many friends left.

It's a shame. But you can't really help someone who won't help themselves, can you?